People

You know, I had always thought that I was one of those people who did what she wanted to do, by hook or by crook, while giving no fudges altogether about people who notice and observe and judge for something they know nothing about. I thought I was the carefree one with no stress and baggage and don't need society or any other little stupid, non-sensical person to tell me how beautiful, lovely and amazing, or in my case inglorious, deplorable and abominable I am and how I should practice the principles as per the acceptability in the community, instead of standing up for self. How convenient!

I had an experience recently of the kind. This one time, someone asked me how my life had been, if I had been enjoying myself so far, or maybe I was happy and satisfied with how it had turned out. They asked me how I was coping up with general good girl problems of college, like my homework, studies, maybe some projects or things like that. They also moped around as to how lucky I was to have no problems at all and how my life so far had been a smooth bed of roses and a few minute, puny, meaningless, and totally picayune thorns which didn't count (the thorns being my studies of course).

I had pondered over the question for a long time to come up with something more appropriate and respectful but came up with nothing. I couldn't just say that 'yeah it has been good so far, I have been enjoying myself living with neglecting and uncaring parents, a sick, psycho, rapist of a boyfriend and selfish, back-stabbing, bitches for friends, college is not even on the list as I'm not interested in investing my precious, pivotal time in immaterial, superficial things like studying and fudging my head'. 

Also, I couldn't say that, 'yeah, it has been a busy year, college projects had been such a headache coz I don't understand why I need to study 5 different subjects having no use for the career I want to pursue and what I want to do with my life but since you dumb, half-assed heads won't understand, so I'm forced to work on those bloody damn narcissistic little beasts, just so I could clear the year and continue my life with absolutely no attention from my selfish, society fudging folks!

They probably wouldn't wanna hear it.

No, it is far more complicated than this. And people wanna hear what they wanna listen to, not what you wanna say, and definitely not the truth.

So, yeah like the 'good' society girl I was, with all the candidly charismatic, disgraceful, corrupt and far from socially acceptable manners I had been bestowed upon by 'people', I gave a sweet, charming smile, and replied, 'yes, my life has been great so far with loving and caring parents, hard-working projects, and how I had been interested in studies so much not to give a fuck. Oops!

Well, so much for not giving a fudge, literally!

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